gonzo loves ancient creatures

the creative juices begin to flow. he's sleepy, in bed, but the mind never rests at this late hour. a friend once said "why do we exit suddenly, have our clearest thoughts when we're half asleep?"

i sit at my desk. a gazillion items strewn about. im usually more mindful of my desk. where i work, etc. but then again that depends.. a year ago this exact day, i was @ a jam space, chain smoking cigarettes and making music that i thought no one would ever hear.

stop.

i gotta say im not a huge fan of titling/labeling things.
or organization for that matter, by means of categorization of course.
although anyone who knows me, who sees a lot of me, knows how much i love to clean. ill admit that i like cleanliness, but its more so the activity of cleaning i adore. the mindless slumber of mundane labor. im a sucker for part time jobs. they let my busy mind shut down, if only for 8 hours. i build things for the same reason. or at least tend to find little to no satisfaction in the completion short-term tasks, being so fixated on the act of doing them. its the same with food... as much as i love to eat that sandwich, i hate to see it go.

but what am i speaking about? the greener grass on the other side of the proverbial fence? the cake that you have and eat as well? (which, for folk like myself who never got that saying, implies owning something of a limited quantity, enjoying it indefinitely, and never needing to part ways with it)

in the couple of days away from this page, from my blogging, bouncy baby, ive been studying the sexual habits of humanoids and rats and porcupines and generally species that begin with every letter but "x". my findings are technical, and largely focused on the psychological aspect of sexual development, desire and behavior.

ive also put together a couple of videos. considering the time, and the frequency of my yawns, and the sloppiness of my typing, here they are.

im gonna shut up now.

love you. gnight. =)